HEAL.ME

When I choose to feel goodness above evil

When my brain no longer saves up pain

Stored away in the depths of hurt and weakened pieces of tattered ghost-soul

And I listen to what my body needs from me

And I satisfy it with caring…

When you feel like you want to cry when you feel good

Because you are so used to touching fire

And walking on hot coals

It hurts more to feel love from another

Because the happiness aches inside you…

When you want to fold-up into a ball and be fetal and safe

Even though you want to love back

And love yourself enough to accept it

But the overwhelming feeling that you don’t deserve it sneaks up to you

And pushes you down like a boy in the schoolyard

When all you wanted to do was play…

That’s how it feels to love myself.

J.F

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Author: Joanna Fanuko

"Hold on to the present; let go of the past; reach your hand out to the future." Join me on my journey through mental health and wellness. PUNKTUATED.blog features my original poetry and deep thoughts. Thanks for following and reading!

3 thoughts on “HEAL.ME”

  1. It is the hardest thing to do in this world…and the most rewarding. And each step where you face yourself and ask ‘why’, brings you closer and closer to that healing. Break the fear, break the shackles…and be free ❤

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  2. Thanks, Mark! It is difficult, but you are right — it is worth the fight when those fleeting moments of peace come. I appreciate the supportive words.

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